Life And Living No. Eight

Light And Dark

Life and Living

Part Eight

I was wondering today if, in my household, I heard more about how pleasant the days have been or if I have heard more about how terrible the days are going.

After that thought passed through my mind, (Why do ideas like that come into my consciousness?) I began thinking to myself: who do the pleasant thoughts come from, and who do the dark thoughts come from?

If I didn't count myself, there is only one other person to think about, and that person's thoughts and words are always pleasant.

That leaves me in a challenging position if I want to know the answer to my question.

Since I asked that question to no one specific person, I don't have to give any answer I would not want to hear. And since I am just thinking and not talking to anyone, I can consider the response to myself, and no harm will have been done.

So, as I think of the answer to myself, I must be the problem for my house's dark, negative vibes. That could be good to know, but it’s not very encouraging.

I would like to know if my dark, negative attitude will affect others in this household. It might not be too bad if it did affect others since there is only one other person to be inflicted by my terrible, dark, negative thoughts.

But if it did affect the other person, would I hear things like: “The work around this house is not getting finished or even started”?

I'll, then, have to start staying up late trying to complete these projects. Or should I just let the whole house go to wreck and ruin?

I don’t want to hear this. “Why don't we move out of this house into a new home”?

Now, remember, I have yet to say a word. I am only thinking in my mind and thinking of some pretty dark pictures. As I let the dark thoughts flow through my mind (I wonder where they go.) But I began to do some reasoning to myself. I don't want others affected by my weird, dark, negative thoughts and words, even if that is the kind of thoughts and words I might express. It would be too negative, and two negatives don't make a positive. (I had heard that from my high school English teacher many times, so it must be true.)

Though it was challenging to deal with the decision, I decided not to be so negative and to work at being more positive.

Now, I have more choices. This is where the work comes in, and severe decision-making starts.

Do I have to think about a positive thought first, or will my thoughts automatically come out in a positive sentence? I may practice by considering the positive words and then practicing them quietly (like in the bathroom) to see if they finally sound positive, like I want them to.

If the tone of my voice and the quality of my words are surprisingly positive, I think others will entirely enjoy them in our house.

7/4/2020 Larry E. Whittington

Since I have about 50 of these short “Life and Living” spots written, should I continue with them? Old lazy me says, “Why not?” The positive remarks get two checks, while the negative ones get one. Now, is that fair for me, or is that fair for me? I will accept either of these two answers in this sentence.

I am trying to “lighten up a little” and be myself.

11/20/2023 Larry E. Whittington