This Is The First Day Of The Rest Of My Life

What May Come?

I wrote this about thirteen years ago, and will post these thoughts again.

Today is the first day of the rest of my life.
Started Monday, October 29, 2012 at about 11:20 PM

Today is the first day of the rest of my life.
What will come in the following days?
How many days will I have?
I have no answers for these.

All I can control is the moment 
called now.
I can’t control the tomorrows
 I have and no other time.

It is written that I should say,
“If the Lord wills I will do this or that”.
I cannot say that I will do this or I will do that.
I cannot control the rest of the days of my life.

I can think. I can imagine.
I can plan but it is the Lord that will determine it.
It all depends of what he wants of me
and what he made me for.

God supplied interests, talents, abilities
and whatever gifts he has given
or he will give to me. Remember,
God is not finished with me yet.

I am digressing just a little bit
but I wonder what would have happened if I
would have desired being an elder several years ago
when I was approached for being one.

I don’t know.
I don’t even know if I should even
be asking such a question of myself
but it was in my mind. 

Just thinking about it,
I would hope that Crossroads Church would be different
than it turned out to be.
But that is in the past and the past is not changed.

The future is not what I live in
I must remind myself
that I can only control the moment of time that is now.
I can choose for this moment of time. 

Not for a moment of time yesterday,
 last year, or 50 years ago.
God does let me choose the now 
and each now he gives to me.

It is at this now
I choose to follow
what God leads me through
though I do not know where.

What decision each now 
will require of me to follow. 
Thank you God for the peace you give
in choosing to follow you in this now.

God, I open my spirit, my will,
and my mind to you to fill.
I desire your Spirit to fill me and lead
and guide me to follow your lead.

God, I don’t know what talents, interest, 
Or even infirmities and frailties 
you may provide for me
May your Spirit gently reveal them to me.

God, you have so completely
given your written will.

As I read your word and meditated upon it
 may I understand more and more of your will.
I want to not only marvel but
 use it as you would want me to.

Date Oct. 29, 2012 
Larry E. Whittington
rockhead2u@comcast.net